This whole week has been filled with a lot of 'I wish's.
I wish we didn't have to end this way.
I wish you would still want to fight for us.
I wish you hadn't made all those promises to me.
I wish we had never met.

I still feel myself as being quite fragile after all this. I've been trying, very very hard to put this all past me. But, this is honestly a first for me, so I guess it'll take a bit longer to get used to. But no matter how much my mind wraps itself around thoughts of you and us and how we could've been, my heart in all its calmness thankfully keeps reassuring me that I'm doing the right thing. It wouldn't be called a challenge if it wasn't physically and emotionally draining like this. So, I know that this sacrifice is something that I need to go through.

Ya Rabb, I surrender my heart to you. I pray for You to never let me waste a single moment of my time with negative thoughts. I pray for You to give me the strength to focus on the great things You have sent me to do. And I pray for You to never let me stray from Your path. For there truly is nothing I fear more than that..